Im afraid

Im afraid of what would happen in the coming few days. Seems everything start to fall apart. The stresses, the panic in finding patient exam, the results forensics and ikm not going out yet, its all over my head. Plus, with the acms thingy yet. Haih. Sometimes i wish i've never take medic here. But its too late. Its too late.

I just want to get out of here. To get out of these situations. Im tired of the dramas, the problems. But then again, back home i'll face the same things. Probably even worse. I'm not excited to be here right now neither to finish it and be home. Im lost. Im really lost. In the end, its always just me alone facing the world.

Dear god, im really afraid. Im really afraid that i feel so lost. I dont even know what i want in life. Im lost. Help me.:'(